Some thoughts on solitude

This week a good friend of mine closed their facebook account. which meant I am unable to speak with them anymore – unless they get to TTitD that is. It got me thinking about things like friendship and the choices we make.

some time ago I decided not to keep calling “friends” that failed at least once in a while to call me, which unsuprisingly meant a lot of people fell of my “must call them” list pretty quickly. In fact i can say now that most of the people i chat with i do exclusively through that anti-social media Facebook, In fact I can with some certainty i spend most of my life in solitude so here are my thoughts on it.

If like me you think a lot when you are on your own you will reach different decisions than those you would in company – do i drink/eat/facebook/anything too much? the only real answer i can give is. You are only trying to please yourself so don’t worry about it. Or rather don’t do anything because it seems you aren’t living by societies rules. you are on your own, so you are your own society. For example on off my pleasures that i have carried over from when i lived with a late riser is to get up early on a sunday (5-6am) have a drink or a smoke or both watch TV or a film until about 8, then slightly drunk go back to bed for a couple of hours. Sure thats probably something society would frown on but i am not doing it to please society.

Every now and then you will feel down and nobody is around to make you feel better. I get this quite often and make decisions to do stuff or go out and see people or some such rubbish. sometimes i actually do it too. then i remember why i don’t see any people, because i don’t like them that much. thats why i spend a lot of time alone

now the other side is when you get used to being on your own, because people never call you is you never call them, right now i am overdue calling my mum, my son and daughter, one of the few friends i do actually speak too, emailing freinds in America or even chatting to them on facebook. instead i am writing this.

BRB. got some calls to make.

 

I think in it’s way that proved my point solitude is great and all, if you are comfortable with your own company. Don’t make it a habit though. keep the friends you do have, you kept them for a reason and perhaps you just aren’t trying to keep them anymore.

this has been a post dictated by my decision to post here once a week. not by any great thoughts or occurences in my life. don’t read to much into it. Or do it’s you life after all.

 

 

My Homes not big enough

my homes not big enough anymore,

I only found it last year, now it cant fit all my friends

now it seems they have to close the door

My home is the biggest place, room for many types

this time though its got too small its filled from wall to wall

though my Home is now to small,

its taught me something great how to grow my heart

that will take them all

so please my friends dont hate the friends you dont yet know

just let them in your heart there is room for them all

how do I tell my friends Dont call

for I am going to my home and I am not alone

in answering that call

if you are not there in flesh I Know your heart will be

because home is where my heart is and where I met you all

So my friends if you are going home, or maybe not at all

I know no matter what, wherever you may be

my dreams will never stall

for I am going home this year, no matter what it is

home is where i met you all

my homes not big enough anymore

for all my friends to go, but no matter what or where you are

your in my heart your burners all

and if you go or not if choose to stay or go

my home is in my heart and in it is you all.

my l’il dawgies dont be mad if you dont get to burn the playa this year, because once youve been you take a little home with you and so does everyone else and everyone leaves a little of themselves there, so we are all connected because the playa links us not where we are or when it is.

lets make this the year that burenrs talk about when they say last year was better. At least until 2013 anyway