a few years ago, i discovered a wonderful thing.

BURNING MAN.

I have been doing it wrong.

The first year it took a massive amount of planning and investment, to the extent i had to stop doing a lot of the things i would normally do, like going out. Each successive year, it has again taken a lot of planning and investment often meaning i have had a lot of difficulty affording to go out.

Now i find myself in the situation where i am doing pretty much nothing but planning to go to that thing in the desert.

so that’s how I am doing it wrong, it is just a camping trip in the desert, not life in total. whats worse because i am travelling over from England on my own I actually do very little to add to the event being damn close to being a spectator and what is the most participatory event i know of, sure i do a bit of volunteering and help set up camp etc etc etc, but i don’t actually take much with me no art (blaming my inability to draw paint or create) i do take stuff for friends but that’s bought stuff, like ginger cordial.

whats worse is i do almost nothing over here, and as result i find myself getting tired and fat.

one thing i have learned from BM though is it s a do-ocracy, if you want something and someone else isn’t doing it, then do it yourself. Nobody is going to change my life for me, so i have to do it myself, find things i want to do. Join a juggling club to learn more tricks with stix (maybe learn how not to set myself on fire) start going to some sort of fitness plan (there’s a martial art club not far from me) and invest in learning a new skill. Actually 2, first i have wanted to learn locksmithing for a few years and really want to learn skydiving. Both require a certain financial investment, but i have fairly well paid job so that can be done.

i find myself making excuses. I need to pay for BM first – which is quite right. so i have transferred some money to a savings account, starting my saving plan for BM (it has been years since i actually tried to save money on my own – i usually give to other people to look after for me)

so lets see how this goes, restarting this blog is the first step. no grand adventure (sorry ’bout that) but a simple plan. next step is to go the juggling club (if it still exists) on Tuesday. maybe the martial art club on Wednesday (if i can remember where it is).

maybe then i will enjoy burning Man as much as the first time.

 

edited to add.

 

Work has been keeping me late the last two weeks so i have not managed to do the things i said. i have however been out round a friends  and commited to going to a festival later on in march. hopefully going for drinks before some friends go to torture garden, i would go but i forgot to book a ticket and its sold out.